I Just Did Something BIG

...that I've never done before

Today I did something really BIG.

Something I have never done before.

I am dancing with the butterflies in my stomach.

I’m not going to reveal what it is just yet…because sometimes dreams need to be held close to the heart until they are ready to fly :).

But I will share with you experiences from my process around deciding to actually put this dream into motion right now, and drumming up the courage to take a bold first step. I had a really cool ‘wink from the Universe’ this morning, the day I decided to take the action to make a real investment in my dream: the book I am using to give me journal prompts offered COMMITMENT as the theme for today. I received that as a welcome confirmation ;).

Today, I took a significant risk for what I would love, before knowing the details of how it will come together. I could have put it off longer, until there was more certainty around the details, and many people would have waited (and waited). Yet I know from real-life experience that wholehearted, daring, grounded commitment - without hesitancy - is what ultimately brings dreams into alignment with the supportive energetic flow of the loving universe.

I did spend some preparatory weeks in focused meditation, extra journaling time, and many hours of practical research and planning, to arrive at the clarity I needed to engage decisively in committed action, even with many unknowable variables outstanding. Today, I feel the elation that accompanies the honoring of a long-held personal dream in a newly-aligned, courageous and liberating way.

I am reminded of this quote I love, which I had taped to my kitchen cabinet to bolster my courage and faith for many years after my divorce:

“With unflinching steadiness march on your path, believing that the infinite creative Power is behind you.” - Paramahansa Yogananda

I may make for myself a physical vision board now (though I already have one in my heart & imagination), to help hold the frequency of my dream-vision during the remainder of its creation phase. What I took action for today is only one step in the process of bringing it to fruition, but it’s a step worthy of big celebration since it is the step that confirms my commitment to the plan.

This dream requires significant financial risk, in addition to time and energy and many new learning edges. I had to leverage money, which tends to be a little scary for me since I am self-employed, and I prefer to live debt-free. Part of my visionary ability though, is that I am able to imagine multiple ways in which the financial balance can be soon restored. Still, maneuvers like this require strong faith in a friendly universe, one that has my back when I am on a good track. When I know my dream is born from love, it’s not so hard to trust the way forward before it is physically visible.
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It is the next day now, and I am returning to this writing. I tossed and turned some last night, wrestling just a bit with an old familiar voice of self-doubt. Oh my God, did I really just DO that? What have I just gotten myself into? Did I make the right decision? Did I get the details right? Will it really turn out like I’ve imagined?
I’m guessing many of you know the drill! When I got out of bed, I gently reparented myself by writing in my journal that it is time to release the decision energetically, the decision which has already been clearly and firmly made with full permission from my Self, and start having FUN with the next phase of my dream :). I reminded myself that it is par-for-the-course to have some jitters when I am stretching to embark on something worthwhile, something packed with new positive potential. I also acknowledged the relief I feel in being ‘over the hump,’ having made the big decision and thus opened the way for my next steps to follow.

It may be many months still, before I know what the financial recalibration will look like. And I have made peace with that. The way I made peace with it was by facing my biggest fears (before taking action for my dream) about a conceivable ‘worst-case-scenario’ fall-out, and seeing that I could find my way through that. This is not quite the same as keeping a ‘safety-net,’ which can prevent big dreams from taking off wholeheartedly. It’s more akin to simply tapping into the depths of my own inner resourcefulness, and knowing that I can count on myself.

Do you have a dream you’d love to launch, yet find yourself hesitating? Would you love the kind of support that an experienced dream-builder can offer? Truthfully, not all of my dream-building commitments have born the kind of fruit I was aiming to grow, but all genuine efforts do bear some fruit, some bear abundantly, and I sure have lived, loved, laughed, and learned a lot from taking chances on my dreams.

Please don’t hesitate to connect with me if you would like to explore what it’s like to have a dream-building mentor by your side. It’s my most joyous way to serve :).